Trust Him Anyway

Lack is real in my life right now, just like it is in the lives of many. I'm normally not moved by what I have or don't have, but I was moved to tears last night. Sometimes it feels like I've been living in a Job moment forever, and just when it seems like I'm coming out and things are changing in my favor, something out of the blue happens and I remain in need.

After I started crying solemn tears, I proceeded to have a mini-pitty-party. Not too far into it, I took the last little strength I could muster up and cried out to God reminding Him that He said that I'm above and not beneath. He said that I'm the head and not the tail. He said that He would supply all of my needs according to His riches in glory. He said that I am an ambassador to His kingdom. He said that I am a joint heir. 

I finally went on to pray for a solid rest, as He said He would give me rest when I'm heavy laden. I slept soundly, but woke up to even more of the same as another negative event happened over night as I was sleeping. All I could think of is "yet will I trust Him."

I don't think that what I'm going through is a surprise to God. As a matter of fact, I know that anything that I face has to be allowed by God. Why, I don't know, nor do I need to have all of the answers. But what I do know is that He knew that I would speak from the heart on the matters concerning me this morning and that this post is probably bigger than me and for someone else to hear. I know that there's power in this post because for some unknown reason, this entire post erased when I wrote it, not once but twice, and I rewrote it again because someone needs to know that they are not alone in whatever they're going through. Your difficulty may not be the same as mine, but let's not get weary in well-doing. The victory is ours.

The verse that I was drawn to this morning was Habakkuk 3:17-18. It's titled, Habakkuk rejoices in the Lord. It reads as follows: 


Though the fig tree should not blossom nor fruit be on the vines, the produce of the olive fail and the fields yield no food, the flock be cut off from the fold and there be no herd in the stalls, yet I will rejoice in the Lord; I will take joy in the God of my salvation.

Be blessed and stay encouraged. I love you.